Not sure why I like that word so much. "Musings" just sounds so much more interesting than "thoughts" and far more like what I do. I don't THINK about things so much as I PONDER them...and I believe a "musing" is similar to a "pondering".
Whatever I'm doing, I promised a post weeks ago and let time run away...So while I'm in a musing mood I thought I'd take advantage. So this may be a bit of...what's the term? Stream of consciousness? Something like that. Who knows where I'll end up.
Obviously, the main focus of my musings has been this little munchkin I'm carrying. I'm 17 weeks and 3 days along...which means I have 23 days til my next appointment...Which happens to be my next ultrasound when we get a chance to see this little person again. So much growth happens between 12 and 20 weeks...I'm excited to see how this baby has developed and hopefully catch a few glimpses of personality. :) Though of course, the BIGGEST thing we're hoping to learn is whether this baby is a he or a she. While my changing shape is definitely a daily reminder that this is REAL, being able to say "he" or "she" and talk to the munchkin by name is something I'm definitely looking forward to. It's been most fascinating how my belly has developed a sort of magnet between it and my hands...I find my hand there in unconscious gestures often: cradling, rubbing, patting...It makes me laugh sometimes because I feel like i'm acting like a "very pregnant" mother when I'm barely 4 months along and--to those who don't know--barely look different!
But don't you tell ME I don't look different! By all means make a big deal out of my little baby bump! I've never weighed this much in my LIFE thank you very much, and I haven't gained all that much yet. :P
I'm not going to lie by saying "I can't wait to meet this little person"...I'm definitely not there yet and quite content to wait til September, but I AM looking forward to getting to KNOW this little person. Feeling her(him) move and kick, responding to my voice, watching Jeremy when the baby kicks HIM for the first time. :)
Right now I know just a few things about my baby and they'll never change. Our baby is very much wanted, very much loved, and very very special, whether her initials are MJB or his are ALB.* And that is where I'll call it a night. Mama and baby need some sleep! :)
*Subject to change without notice until Sept. 2010. :P
You're allowed to talk about Baby as much as you want! I can't wait to find out what you're having--another boy to add to the growing number (I know of 3 more people who just found out they're having boys...yeesh!) and join Matthew and...he who is still sort of unnamed...or a girl for them to torment...in a nice way. :)
ReplyDeleteAnd if your baby is anything like Matthew and Thumper (as I sometimes call him...) s/he will be SNEAKY and not let Daddy feel him/her for ages! We had to sneak up on him, it was nuts.
And finally--I'm just really impressed you have initials, even if they ARE subject to change without notice until Sept. 2010!